Ways to cope with sadness due to lack of money etc?

well, my family is very poor. my mom and i live in a tiny 1 bedroom apartment (i sleep in the dining room area). the middle school within the vicinity is horrible and let's just say i'm PERFECT bullying material (scrawny, can't fight, looks very gay although i'm not) so i would be fearing for my life everyday, which would effect my grades and frankly i would rather die than go there, it's that bad. so i go to a middle school that is much better but it's really far from my house. my mom struggles to get money for gas, and right now with the rising prices there is just no money. we are having to pawn things now and it's very likely i'll have to go to the horrible middle school. i DO NOT want to at all..like you have no idea how much i don't want to. my mom is on food stamps and disability. my mom is a mess too so she's always taking out her anger on me by yelling. so on top of the whole money situation i'm being yelled at. my grades are great at my current school because i'm comfortable there..i really want to be successful when i grow up and i absolutely need to feel comfortable at school to be able to do my work. how do i cope? any suggestions? (sorry i know this is long)